I Think I Love You... || Prologue

It has been 5 years, 364 days, 22 hours, 42 minutes and 37 seconds since you walked into my life...
It has taken me 4 years, 363 days 23 hours and 15 minutes and 57 seconds for me to realize that...
And now you're gone...
And I look back, wondering, thinking, hoping. Watching you walk away, knowing nothing ever happened. Thinking how it would've been if I had told you. Hoping that you'll find her disgusting and realize your best friend is the one you're looking for, the one you know you can live forever with. And I'm stupid because I was blinded, looking for something else and the thing I was looking for was always next to me. Laughing at my stupid, corny jokes, wiping away those tears after all my breakups and heartbreaks, and helping me in Math and Spanish while I helped you in ELA and Global. I was so dumb, and you were probably my brain, you ran away and now I'm numb, not feeling at all, and maybe... just maybe you'll realize and I think... I think way back to when we were still friends, when I still mattered. I was a fool... And I might... I think... I'm not sure but... I think I love you...

Missing You is Loving You <3

To Sammii:.
I know I love you because I'm going to miss you, I know I'm going to cry because you'll no longer be there anymore. I'm going to miss your vibrant personality and the fact that you are an idiot [ily mommii] and I know one thing for sure. You're always going to have a place in my heart, you've always been there for me [kinda] and I know that no distance can keep us apart mentally [er.. I hope :D] and I want you to know this: no matter what happens, no matter what you do, I don't think i can bring myself to hate you because of who you are. You play a pretty big role in my life and I hope you know that if you need any help at all, ever, I'll be there for you as you have been for me. I know I can trust you and I know [or I hope] you trust me too. The past four years have been amazing and I know half of it is because of you. Keep in touch. Don't forget those times because when everything's gone all you have left are the unforgetable and the blessings we all have but cannot count: Memories...

Poetry [Can You...?]

Can you remember,
Because i remember,
When everything was in color,
And not shades of grey...
Can you see,
Because i can no longer see the beauty,
THe beauty that was in the earth...
Can you tell me,
The words i wanted to hear?
Because i haven't given up,
Not yet...
And when i do...
Then i will have truely died,
But nothing can hold me back now,
just tell me...
Can you still love?